So I haven’t updated a thing lately again, but here’s something: I’m finally better and my psych has cut down half of my therapy. And as time passes he’ll totally cut it off. I am very proud of it and maybe that’s half of the reason why I’m not updating. I just didn’t want to go back on this blog which is “full of sh*t”. I’m thinking about changing this theme on something more cheerful now that I’m better. Yeah, it’s very dark on this blog.
Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you’ve felt that way.
So many things has happened past two weeks. But I feel ok now, I really am, which is the most important I guess. I’m trying to use most of my free time wisely (writing, reading, riding a bike, time with bf or some friends or just lay down, listen to music and daydream- this one’s my fav lately).
I am in therapy treatment for almost 5 years now, there had been little steps forward, but also few steps backwards, I guess it’s the way it should be, but I realized that I am not really using all the help I get. This is a weird phase I’m going through.
Haven’t been updating this blog as much lately because I’m in a bad mood and bad things are happening. I’ve talked to my doc about sending me to child and adolescent psychiatric ward, but the problem is that they may keep me there for more than 2 weeks- which I don’t want because I have school and boyfriend here (and that hospital is like more than 350 km away from where I live). I don’t really care for school that much because I know I wouldn’t do anything about my grades even if I stayed here, but the thing with boyfriend, I don’t want to miss him, I don’t want him to miss me, I don’t want him to think that I’m going away for some longer time, idk… All I know is that I want to get better.