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Sometimes you just have to die a little inside to be reborn again as stronger and wiser version of yourself.
You never get over it. But you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much.
Everything suddenly changed inside of me. Everything is so hard to accept, to deal with.
I’ve been thinking about this for some time now and I’m constantly asking myself “am I stuck (with myself) in codependant relationship?”. I haven’t really come to a good and rational conclusion, but, idk, I think this may not be cod. relationship, maybe I’m just a dependant type of partner because each of my relationship was based on my dependant behaviour and guys affraid of leaving me because I’m so fragile.
My bf is very nice, but there’s something bothering me and I’m not sure if I’m the problem orrr… I don’t even know where to start, but he is a depressive type of person and it seems to me that he doesn’t always know how to deal with all of that. He doesn’t talk about it either. He stopped being outgoing suddenly, he sleeps A LOT, he isn’t happy at all… I don’t know what to do and now I’m affraid because I know what depression means.
I don’t want this to fall apart and it’s hard to admit, but I don’t want to loose him. He’s such a good and caring guy afterall.
And then, there’s this other side. Maybe he really doesn’t want to be in a relationship anymore, but it’s ok as long as there’s sex. Which I don’t really believe because I can see that he cares a lot. Fuck it, I don’t know…
I’m just so fucking tired of my overthinking. If I could only switch my brain off for a day or two. I want stability and control goddammit.
You want everything so much and when you get it it’s over and you don’t give a damn.